Imagination, be it friend or foe is the firelight that beams into your soul. It is the necessary tool to be able to expand on a raindrop of an idea. It can also turn one teardrop into a puddle big enough to splash around in.
Our imagination carries us beyond the mind by inviting us to enter through passageways of possibilities. It is the sweetening of wonder. It is the booster juice of inspiration. It is the fuel injection required to unblock and unleash the musings wandering aimlessly in the galaxy, motioning them to formulate creatively.
Sometimes that curious imagination finds out things before you're even ready to go there. It thrives on questions and various "what if" scenarios and turns them into wicked flights of fantasy where wishes upon wishes transform into a multi-sensory carnival of dreams just waiting for you to unleash your inhibitions, doubts and fears so you can replace them with passionate exploration. If you allow your imagination to run freely you may find yourself on a ride you never knew existed, or you thought was beyond your reach. But, if you can imagine it can you then transform it into something tangible and real? Can an illusion ever be held in the palm of your hands?
Imagination dips itself into the well of mystery........... oh, how it LOVES a good mystery. Feed it with pieces of life puzzles and it folds itself into a hideaway nook to savour ever single tasty morsel. Be careful of the stings. Be prepared for some surprising feelings.......for our imagination often has a unique way of rebuilding the puzzle. It may not be how you want it to look, sound, feel like. It may be dangerously painful. It may distort the lines of reality all the while trying to convince you of its honesty. Sometimes our self created imagery will carry us into a sinkhole of doubting dialogue and with one full swoop, send you far away from any comfort you have carefully tucked in all around you.
At times it seems almost impossible to rein in our expansive fabrications. We start spiralling down into a tunnel, haunted by memories and prickly pain only to land with a thud inside a chamber of horrific thoughts? Why do we allow ourselves to go there? Do we need to experience the dark side reality of our imagery in order to eventually let go of it? Is this where we kick and kick until we bleed daylight?
Maybe the travels we take down the side of the mountain where the sun doesn't shine forces us to wrestle the truth from the sticky goo of falsehoods. Maybe its all a part of learning from our sorrows. Maybe it allows us to ask the question.... "IS this the truth? Is what I'm thinking the truth?"
Most days, I embrace my imagination and allow it to lead me beyond the wild. I love the fact that my mind is an endless babbling two way conversation with ideas rich with possibilities. On days when it is my friend, I can float on optimism and hope. I can plan productively, think clearly, sharpen my view of what could possibly be beyond the horizon. Its those other days when the it feels more like a noose around my soul and all I can hear is the same dialogue.... the same song over and over again. It's an obsessive mantra full of failure and rejection, cascading over a waterfall of tears.
My imagination can lead me to an open beach with life affirming salty breezes where I feel loved and at one with this glorious world all around me, but it can also steer me into a abandoned alley reeking in human waste. No matter how hard I try to avoid those stinking alleyways, sometimes its just impossible.
Yesterday, I made it to the beach. Just in time. The singing sands beach in Souris, Prince Edward Island. I had it all to myself. I made the sands sing as I walked along the shore. These sands are famous for their singing. And when I returned to the car to head back to Charlottetown, my toes were still humming........ my friendly imagination was returning. The noose was loosening. Though my sense of failure and rejection still rattles inside me. The shock of hasn't worn off yet. My raw anger has not floated away.......yet.
ps..... so many good things have happened to me over the past two months, and a few very funny things too. I havent had much time to write these days, and long to. I hope I will be able to capture some of the lighter parts soon........... Just have to find the stillness in me to start, write and complete a piece all in one sitting. Its seems impossible right now. Stillness is a fleeting wave .......