Sunday, March 02, 2008

restlessness..........


Restlessness has the capacity to dwarf meaning with it's unrelenting chatter. It's like a hum you can't shake..........a tinnitus of the soul. It's always there niggling away and if you aren't aware of it's presence, you can easily feed it the wrong food.



March has arrived like a lion, and if there's anything to that myth, there bloody well better be a lamb waiting at the end of it. More snow, cold winds, grey skies this weekend........... the view outside my window is a scene right out of a Bergman movie.
I'm tapped out of anything uniquely interesting to write about. Restlessness is winning, which is also a sign that I'm almost over this crazy flu bug. My energy is returning......not fully, but almost...... gotta find my optimism again. It's stuck under 5 frigging feet of snow!
Tomorrow, back to the grind. The month of March sucks.







14 comments:

kenju said...

March came in here like a very gentle lamb. Guess what we have to look forward to? The lion at the end.

Open Grove Claudia said...

Restless. yes. That's a delicious way of saying it - a tinnitus of the soul. Yes. And very March.

I feel this pang of "what am I DOING with my life?" or "I have no IDEA where I am going?" Both lies. Both thought in the middle of going about my life or doing my life.

Yes, that's March in any cold area. We had one teaser day - 70 degrees and amazing. It's blowing snow and cold today. The warm was wonderful. The cold... returns.

Yes. Restless.

I'm glad you are feeling better! Here's to health! :)

Awareness said...

Judy.....If I happen to see that lion roaming about in these neck of the woods at the end of the month, I will buy him a ticket south.....down I-95!

The one thing about snowstorms (normally) at this time of year is that the temps are going up and stuff begins to melt. This year, however, we're in for a BIG melt!

Claudia.....Your comments make me smile.....IM NOT ALONE!! :)
I had every intention of writing this erudite piece on the importance of restlessness as part of the process of discovering and learning and stretching and growing and blahdeeblah..... and all I could think of was what a crock of shit that would be if I wrote it in the frame of mind I am in. (Actually, I'm sipping on a glass of wine, which is chirping up my 'tude.)
We have had a few melting sprees over the course of this long winter and thank God we have because I honestly don't know how we would've coped with the amount of snow we've received accumulatively since November. Even now, the snowbanks are about 8 feet high......it's CRAZY.

I do agree with you.....the questions posed are thrown into the mix of going about life. AND, I honestly believe restlessness is a necessary ingredient in figuring it out.
And yes, I am feeling better, thank you though to listen to my cough, you'd think I was drowning!

ps. the sunset tonight was gorgeous.

Awareness said...

oh, one more thing....you've had two teasers in Colorado.....one nice 70 degree day, and the return of Forsberg. hahahaha! He may be a hottie, but he's a WIMP!

Marja said...

Hope you are feeling better. Oh I catched the restlessness bug.
It can eat you up but I killed it just in time.
For us Autumn has started complete with a storm. But after all the heat is a welcome refreshment

Gypsy said...

Sorry to hear of your restlessness Dana. I hate that feeling myself.

I love March because the weather is finally starting to cool down. The mornings and evenings have that definite crisp feel to them and hopefully there won't be too many more really hot days. Gorgeous.

Star said...

I've got that restless feeling as well. Sprin is nigh. Hang in there.

Rainbow dreams said...

Glad your energy is starting to return... these bugs can drain us of valuable reserves, especially when the weather isn't aiding our mood..
March is the turning point of the year for me, we have one hurdle left to go before Easter, and then spring is within reaching distance and usually making itself known...
Think my brain would be frozen of ideas though if I lived where you do...:)I have no reasons, or excuses even, for lack of writing material...

Jane Poe (aka Deborah) said...

I'm glad you're starting to feel better dear Dana ... soon the seasons will turn and your restless spirit can break free! xx, JP/deb

Charles LeBlanc said...

NOTHING ABOUT ME????


WHHHHAAAAAAAA....SNIFF...SNIFF....


:p

Tori said...

Yes. I officially need to see Spring to believe it. I want green.

Robert said...

so glad to know your feeling better dana!!! I am awaiting with glee the writing to emerge from your muse once you are restored to health and have the freedom from weariness to let that restless spirit take flight. you always supply inspiration even when it may seem as though you are stuck my friend. Thanks so much for the thoughts on my page.

OldOldLady Of The Hills said...

So sorry to read you have such a horrid Flu Bug! No fun in that--THAT'S for sure! I hope you will be feeling tip top very very soon...I know these things can get you down in every way...! Physically, Emotionally, and Psychiclly, too....
Maybe the thing to do is just go-with-the-flow...and get as much mest as possible. The muse will return, I promise.

paris parfait said...

Restlessness - yes, I know it well. Hope you're feeling better now and that the month begins to improve too! xo