whys....

I was born to ask why.

big heaping sighing whys

wondrous eye widening whys....

thunderous cloud clapping whys
contemplative reveries

I was born that way.

it's who i am.... don't know why.

I gave birth to two babes who were born to ask why

sky blue toddler whys

childhood crave-seeking whys 
adolescent angst ridden whys

they were born that way....

it's who they are..... don't know why.

open ended seekers we are

my little brood and I.....we're "whys-crackers!"

one more quiet in her asking than the other

he's got brain heated tempered whys....

she's got whispering late night sighs....

and me?

ah, I've been blessed.....

I have whispering heated massive whys

percolating my soul

popping out of my pores

piercing the skies with spirit.

always spirit.....

my whys are my passion....my spirit, my flesh

firefly whys that blink light

like twinkling eyes.

Tonight....just to sample a few.....
why do some songs make me weep?

why do some bring peaceful sleep?

why does it hurt so much to love

why IS their no answer from above?

why do the Blues make my body want to dance?

why do I continue to give love a chance?

why does God leave me unprotected?

why can't my skin be more reflective?

there are no answers to assuage me....

except a bonding faith I cannot see.

I take a chance when I ask my questions.

rarely do answers echo back

its the natural fire deep within me 

to go beyond the "just because..."

just because

just because.....it never could settle me.

when i want to 

i can surrender

letting the whys just slip into mystery

letting go of the entanglement. 

when I want to embrace destiny.

But.....

Like my kids, I was born to ask why

big heaping sighing whys

wondrous eye widening whys

thunderous cloud clapping whys. 

I don't know why.  

just because.......

We were just born that way? 

So, tonight, I sit outside in silent darkness

catching breezes as they speak

imagining the voyage of discovery

when an answer lands at my feet.

Now, why would I want that to happen?
How crazy would that be??
Life is so much more enticing
when it's cradled in why-full mystery.